Breastholds (Or: The Return of My Boobs Are Sore!)

You know, thresholds, breasts... I, uhhh, whatever.

I seem to have crossed some kind of threshold with the size of my breasts. As mentioned in this post, they have been growing... again! It's been over seven years since I started hormones, and I'm still getting spurts of growth. My last spurt was in January, 2010. That was due to my starting a medication called Provera, a progesterone supplement. I had another big spurt before that in September, 2009. This occurred right after I increased my Estradiol, an estrogen supplement. I've since stopped taking the Provera, and I'm on the same dose of Estradiol that I was on back then. So, why the increase?

My breasts are all sore and warm. Very sensitive there. And bigger! I keep wondering why and how, but then tell myself not to look a gift horse in the mouth.

What's interesting is the reactions from people that I get now. Particularly men. Let me just say right now that I don't have the slightest attraction towards men. They can never be in the same universe for me as a sexy, curvy woman. But while getting attention from men can seem kind of creepy to me (the older, the more creepy), it is rather reaffirming. I've seem to have passed a threshold (breasthold!), and now men are staring at me. A LOT. Particular in one area, just south of my face. One day, not much. The next, all of a sudden I have all these fans!

Too bad none of them are women. Oh, that's right, I'm engaged to the love of my life. D'oh!  ;)

Speaking of which, I wanted to post some kind of comparison on here, but this is not an adult-only blog, and Nikki would kill me in any case. But I just took in a picture in a "classic" outfit. This is a nightgown that looks like, well... a gown. In late 2005, I took a couple photos wearing it:

Well, look now:

 

I've come a long way, baby!

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Diarrhea of the Mouth

I don't know what's up, but Nikki has been going crazy lately, saying very non sequitur type of things to people. People we don't even know. And since she's seen me getting rather embarrassed by such things, she's doing it even more.

It started in Wal-Mart. I suppose she was bored and tired. She congratulated a man on his way out, for his selection of Tide detergent. He said, "What?" She repeated it, and he looked exasperated. He said, "Whatever," and walked out. I was trying to get away at that point, but Nikki had my arm and wouldn't let go.

The other day, she made two ladies laugh at her. We were in the car at a stop light. I was caressing Nikki's cheek. I'm often affectionate like this with my sweetie. But there was a woman in the lane next to us, just dead-on staring. As comfortable as we are with each other, we forget that others may be set aback by seeing two women in love. I told her that a woman over there was looking at us. Nikki thought the window was closed. (That's her story anyway.) She looked at the woman and said, plain as day, "I'm her baby."

The woman laughed. It was a twittering kind of laugh. Naturally, we both just started laughing also. But we were stuck at the light, and the lady was still next to us. Nikki took a nearby sweatshirt and covered her head with it. Unfortunately for me, I was driving, so I couldn't do this. I just looked away and continued to laugh. Finally the light turned green and I could get out of there!

Later on, we were in a grocery store, and Nikki randomly blurted out, "People. I eat them." This older lady who was passing by started laughing her ass off. I ducked down a nearby aisle. I mean, really now. Nikki says she eats people.

Short of knocking her unconscious, what can I do about this? She's driving me nuts, ha ha!

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Geocaching II

We went geocaching again last Sunday (see here for the first expedition, as well as an explanation of what geocaching is). The whole family came this time. We went after three caches, and we found them all. Read on...

Our first cache was nearby in the Safeway parking lot. That's all we knew. I parked in front and let my GPS tell me where to go. We soon learned that the cache was behind the store. We looked behind a tall metal cabinet thingie and found the skeletal remains of a bird. No picture for this one, sorry! The cache turned out to be underneath a metal plate on a lightpost. Nikki saw that it was loose and pulled it upwards. We found a little sardine tin underneath. We took some items and left some of our items, tiny as they were. They had to be, this thing was tiny. I forgot what the items were, sorry.

We got back in the car and headed for the next one. (I would just walk but everyone else gets tired quicker than I do.) This one was in a trail behind a bunch of houses. We found it pretty quickly under a tree. There was what looked like a birdhouse, but upon closer inspection, it most definitely was not. Observe:

The owner of this cache had built the semi-birdhouse himself. That's really neat! I also loved the way the "chest o' trinkets" looked, as well as the log book. Here's a picture of me holding both.

We also found our first travel bug in this cache. A travel bug is a trackable dog tag that you can place in a cache. It's usually attached to an item in some way. This allows you to track your item online. The item becomes a hitchhiker that is carried from cache to cache (or person to person) in the real world and you can follow its progress online. The one we found was in a small plastic bag with a lego.

This travel bug is "racing" with another travel bug. Whichever one goes the most miles wins. They both started in the U.K.! The travel bug with the yellow lego is till in the U.K. This red one made it to Florida, then up to Canada, back down to New Mexico, and ended up in Arizona - first partway up Mount Lemmon, and now down here near us. What a trip! The unfortuante thing is, our car is not so good. Otherwise we'd bring it at least 30 miles or something. I'll have to drop it off somewhere else locally. Maybe the next geocacher can do right by it.

Before we headed to the next cache, we decided to take a few miscellaneous pics.

The kiddos!

I really love this picture of me and my snookums!

Our last cache was a really tricky one. It was located by the Pantano Wash, but farther south. Luckily for us, we didn't have do down in the wash, like last time. We looked so long for this damn thing. All that was around were little bushes and dirt. And my GPS was telling me I was 0.0 feet from the cache coordinates! Nikki and the kids kept kicking this log around, picking it up and putting it down, kicking it, etc. I picked it up...

The sun was in our eyes.

Wow! This guy carved a hole in the log and jammed an altoids tin into it! There wasn't much inside since it was so small. And no wonder the coordinates were off. They were moving the log from it's original location, so when I was standing there, it was somewhere else. Geez...

We took some time to fool around and climb a tree. I'm a kid at heart, so I had to get in on the fun.  ;)

Yayyyyy!

Sarah, get that thing out of your mouth!

This is really good picture of Sarah.

"Honey, take the picture! Can't... hold on... much... longer...!"

We took the long way around (by mistake) when going back to the car. Skylar was really tired. She kept stopping and sitting down on the sidewalk. I wanted to hit some more caches, but we had to call it a day.

I'm considering starting another blog just to cover our geocaching exploits. We'll see...

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Funny Video Friday: Crows vs Cat vs Cat Street Fight

Yes, FVF is back! Did anyone miss it? Probably not.

This video (and a few others) inspired me to start these posts up again. This had me laughing hysterically! I had to keep rewinding the video because of the tears filling up my eyes. You should have heard me laughing. It made me laugh even more!

First of all, the soundtrack was perfect. It's from the Predator movies. They synchronized it with the action excellently. It's really funny to see it playing over cats and birds fighting.

Second of all, that poor cat! I felt bad but I was laughing my ass off at the same time. The crow pulls his tail and the other cat jumps him! He doesn't know how to watch them all at once. Poor thing, but ha ha ha!!! I like to think that he's okay and all the naughty "predators" either got bored or got theirs!

P.S. Geocaching update will be posted tomorrow!

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Snippets

I went to the eye doctor the other day, that one in Wal-Mart. I have a pair of very old glasses (from The Before Time, so they're not all pretty or anything) that are bent and not my prescription anymore. That's okay, because I hate wearing glasses and I only wear them around the house and such. So yes, I wear contacts... and I'm on my last pair. They are getting a pair of free samples in about two weeks to hold me over until I can purchase some amount of contacts.

Skylar says, 'imagigation' instead of 'imagination.' Imagi-gay-tion. I like it. Someone should give their LGBT blog or organization (organi-gay-tion?) a name like that. That would rock.

Christmas shopping is just about done. We didn't get that much for the girls, but they'll get other things from their family in New York (semi-useless but hey it's something). We're really short on funds and high on expenses lately. Thank goodness the electric bill went down to $138 because we're really not using the air conditioner anymore. That's still pretty high though. Geez.

I've been playing a lot of Return to Castle Wolfenstein lately. Well, not a lot compared to a gaming enthusiast or anything. I play every two or three days because I'm so busy with other things. Anyway, it's great fun. Your basic shoot-em-up game. Blow the hell out of Nazis, and then all of a sudden, they bring these undead things back to life. The game totally changes into scary mode after that. Then it's back to Nazis. Hmmm.

We went geocaching again (see here for our first two times). We didn't go to as many or for as long a time as I wanted. Nikki was tired, and so was Skylar. Oh well. Maybe we'll do better next weekend. I'll write about it in more detail in my next post.

A friend of mine (granted, Facebook friend but maybe soon more of a real life friend) is going to try to start a non-profit insurance company of sorts for transfolk seeking GRS. You would pay a certain amount per month and then a deductible, and the company would pay for the rest of the surgery. Naturally, there would be guidelines to follow, and only reputable doctors would be covered. To anyone reading this, what do you think? Is this feasible? What would be some pitfalls and complications, besides getting all the money together for this?

My feelings of depression are directly linked to the cold. It got cold a couple weeks ago (thirties in the morning, and fifties in the afternoon), and I had a few bouts of depression. Ugh, it sucks to suddenly feel so down. For the last five days or so, we've been getting a bit of a heat wave for December (a warm wave?). Now that's it's been upper forties in the morning, and mid to upper seventies in the afternoon, I've been feeling just fine. I guess Arizona is really good for me.

I'm sure many of you bloggers have gotten junk mail from Goofle AdWords. They'll give you $100 of free advertising. You only pay when someone clicks on your ad and goes to your site. Well, I set everything up, and made sure that we would not be going over the $100. Naturally, I made an ad for my blog. However, it's been a week and the ad is still "under review." Figures.

I talked to my dad the other day. He thinks I should get a construction job or go dig ditches. "They're always looking for people to dig ditches." Yeah, that would be a great environment for me. Throw a girly transwoman in with a bunch of macho men. If they didn't figure out I was born male, I'd still be in danger for being the only soft, curvy thing there. No thanks. Dad needs a reality check.

Oh, my boobs are sore... again! It's been over seven years since I started hormones. They're still growing! Is that unheard of or what? I'm not sure. But I'm pretty thrilled about it. They're all sore and warm. Awesome! In following tradition, we need another nice picture of cleavage.

I got a haircut over the weekend. I really love it! My hair can't be too long or I end up yanking it all out. Well, not all of it (!!!), but you know. It's now just under my shoulder and I have respectable bangs again. Yay!

That's it for today. Stay tuned for another geocaching report!

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Geocaching

My family and I went geocaching last weekend and it was great fun. Now, some of you may be asking yourselves, "What the heck is 'geocaching'?"

Geocaching is a treasure hunt of sorts, using GPS technology. You can use a GPS like the one I have, or a GPS-enabled phone (though I've heard that the phones don't get you to the exact coordinates like a GPS does). You get the coordinates online from a site like geocaching.com. Once you get to the location that the container is at (which can be any kind of container), then you look high and low. Check trees, bushes, rocks, anything that may look like a likely hiding spot. Once found, the container could contain tchochkeys or small toys. You may trade an item for an item. Take a little thingie, and leave another thingie in it's place. There's often a log inside to put the date and your name or online alias. Then you put the cache back where you found it, and continue on to the next one if wish. The true fun is in getting outdoors, getting a bit of exercise, and of course, finding the cache. If my explanation made no sense to you, try this video:









I bought my Garmin eTrek Legend GPS about 5 years ago or more, and never used it. For one reason or another, I just never got around to going geocaching. Now that I have a family to share this with, and an area where the weather is almost always sunny, I decided to take up this little hobby. Here's a picture of the GPS that we're using.

So we set out to search for our first geocache. This one was near the Pantano wash. For those who don't know what a wash is, it's used to divert water away from homes and roads, etc., and out into the desert. It usually looks like a dried-up river, but it can turn into a raging torrent when the monsoons hit Tucson, which can happen in July, August or early September. First we looked on the east side of the wash. We walked about 18 meters, only to discover that we needed to go west. The GPS was telling us that the cache was down in the wash itself. The sides of the wash were way too steep to navigate, so we had to go alllll the way back. Once in the wash, we walked about the same distance. The GPS again told us to go west... as we were standing on the bottom of another steep wall of dirt. We went back again, and ended up on the west side of the wash this time. There we found it... finally! To be specific, Savannah was the one who spotted it. Here are some pics:

This... is the wash. Water flows from left to right. Well, it would, if there was any.

Walking down the east side of the wash. I love looking at the mountains here in Tucson. I wonder how long I have to live here in order to stop gawking at them.

Now we're inside the wash. Are you coming, honey?

 Javelina footprints. A javelina is a large, hairy kind of pig, somewhat resembling a warthog.

 This is not the cache. It's an old cassette player with the lid missing.

We found it! It was in that old stump to the right. I'm holding the old can that is our first geocache, and the kids are holding up the little goodies they got.

We later tried to find a cache behind a CVS, to no luck. There were a bunch of trees in the area, and they were confusing the hell out of my GPS. We found one more cache in a stump by the Hilton Hotel parking lot. I didn't take any pictures because it was pretty dark by the time we found it.

The next day we headed out again. Nikki was very achy and sore from the trek on the day before, so she stayed behind, as did Skylar. I took Sarah and Savannah with me, and we found a bunch more caches. It was some good quality time with my two older daughters. Here are some more pictures:

Sarah found this one. It was in a Bath & Body Works container. Savannah got a tiny bowling pin and Sarah got a bell.

"We're here searching for the infamous Kodak Cache. It's so named for the old film container that is the cache itself. What do we have here? A part of this metal fence looks suspicious..."

"Crikey! I found the bugger! It was hung inside the post, from what looks to be a straightened-out safety pin!"

"Ain't she a beauty!"

Here's another cache that was stuffed under the very rock that I'm sitting on. Unfortunately, these tiny caches don't have room for any swag -- errr, items.

If anyone has the wherewithal to invest in this hobby, I would recommend it. I heard that Tucson is a very cache-rich area (hooray!), but there are geocaches all over the world. Speaking of Tucson caches, here's a map illustrating the placement of these caches in my area. Just look at all of them! You can enlarge the pic a bit by clicking on it.

So has anyone reading this ever gone geocaching before? Would anyone like to try it?

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Turkey Day

This is a late report, but I haven't had a chance to blog about this until now. Thanksgiving dinner was wonderful! I seriously think that it's the best I've ever had. And that says a lot, with my past of going over to my grandparents' house for dinner that day, or my aunt and uncle's house, or even when my parents made a Thanksgiving supper and invited packs of relatives over.

Nikki found a recipe for turkey online, and improvised a bit, borrowing an idea or two from a show we watched on The Cooking Channel. To a 14 pound turkey, she added a sliced apple, a sliced orange, an onion, and she also stuffed rosemary and chives under the skin of the turkey. As an aside, I don't know how anyone can do that - just cram stuff under the skin of a dead bird... yechh! Nikki did get Sarah to help since she was a bit grossed out as well!

The turkey was so delicious! The flavor just burst in our mouths. I recommend using rosemary at the very least. It makes the meat taste and smell so good. I tried a piece of apple as well. It no longer tasted anything like an apple. If I hadn't known that Nikki had stuffed an apple in the turkey, I would've asked her what kind of vegetable that was. It was quite yummy!

We also made stuffing - standard by-the-box recipe. Nikki made a truckload of mashed potatoes, homemade. No boxed flakes here, just potatoes (sliced up with the skins left on them - I love it like that!), butter and milk. She made yams with those marshmallows in them. I can't stand that stuff, so there was more for everyone else, ha ha! We heated up some corn as well.

I made one thing that really hit it off well. Homemade cranberry sauce. I took a bag of cranberries, threw them in a pot, and added sugar and water. Once heated up for 5 minutes, they were ready. Oh wow, they were delicious! You know, I hate that cranberry sauce that you can buy in a can. It's disgusting, and I always passed it by every year. But wow, you have to try this! If you buy a bag of cranberries, there's probably a recipe on the bag. If not, just add a cup or two of water, sugar to taste, and wait five minutes or until the cranberries have all burst open. Sooo good! Never mind the canned crap.

So that was our Thanksgiving dinner. We had leftovers for four days, and that was with ravenous eating!

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